A proud man is always looking down on things and on people; and, of course, he would realize that so long as your are looking down, you cannot see something right in front of you.- C.S. Lewis
Life happens and as much as I would like to abide by the saying, “let your smile change the world, don’t let the world change your smile”, I cant. At least not right now.
Somewhere between a rock and a hard place, a place so alluring from afar, placed me in a position of a lot of pressure, pain and stress.
Somewhere between a rock and a hard place, my smile changed, my heart got colder, my eyes no longer led to my soul.
Somewhere between a rock and a hard place, I find myself in a position of breaking or persevering. Alas, the adversity that every successful person claims to have faced, overcome and triumph over.
Here, with my back against a wall, at the age of 21, I have learned the most I have ever learned about myself. I have changed. I have been changed. I like it.
Here, between law school applications, LSAT prep, school, friends, lovers and expectations I find myself calm. For I know that He has given me vision, talent and strength. Here, between this rock and the wall I will be hardened not broken. I will succeed, not for my glory but His.
Until next time my love, LingerAlittleLongerWithMe.
21. me, focused, determined, unsatisfied, twisted, deep, universal, ambitious, fragile strength, calm, quiet, contemplative.
20. depressed, unsatisfied, defeated, still not focused, humbled.
19. in love, not focused, immature, spoiled.
18. powerful, courageous, young, surface.
Today I had the pleasure of reading my roommates blog post, which discussed friendship and her theory on making making friends. Among much of the enlightened things she wrote, one phrase really stuck with me… “Confidence is a choice.” I really could not agree more, hence my blog post about it.
Many times we see people pass by us and they seem so well composed, so determined and so beautiful. We often compare ourselves to them (the worse thing you can do) or wish to be as captivating as they are. However, I contend that we all have insecurities, just some of us choose to no longer be a slave to them.
Choose being the key word. Overlooking your insecurities is not an inherent trait that only certain people are lucky enough to have, it is a choice made very single day… and for some every single moment. Deciding that your self worth will no longer be determined by the guy or girl you are speaking to whom you are engaging with or by what the next issue of Cosmopolitan or GQ magazine tells you, is a decision that has to be made by you. Embracing your qualities and recognizing your faults sets up a foundation on which you can stand on. Once you start with a foundation, no matter how cracked it seems to be, you have decided to plant your feet in something. From there, you can start changing aspects about yourself you are not happy with; however, do so for your inner happiness, not in hopes of impressing someone.
Confidence comes from within, it stems from your core and grows by absorbing the rain and the sun.
Confidence is not given, for something that is given can be taken away.
Confidence is earned and worked for by every decision you make. Confidence is what makes you better version than the person you were yesterday.
Confidence is always under construction.
Everything you do, you have allowed yourself to do.
Every negative thought you have about yourself dictates how others see you.
Therefore, I challenge you. I challenge you to look in the mirror and tell yourself you love you and the aspects you don’t like you will learn to either accept or change. I challenge you to forcefully replace a negative thought with two reminders of why you are great. Most of all, I challenge you to decide that you are worth it, you are worth more than where you are at.
Until next time loves… linger a little longer with me.